(starting the night before)
10:30pm - Shower after pilates and a walk around the neighborhood
11:15pm - Fall asleep while watching Grey's Anatomy on Netflix
11:30pm - SwimTot starts banging on my door, probably wanting me to get her something to eat (my room is right across from the kitchen). I tell her to go away and hear her running to her (sleeping) parent's room crying. Fall promptly asleep.
6:00am - Phone alarm goes off in purse. Blindly dig around till I find it. Text someone back. Set alarm for 6:30.
6:30am - Alarm goes off, hit 10 min snooze.
6:40am - Alarm goes off, hit 10 min snooze.
6:50am - Alarm goes off, hit 10 min snooze, but stay awake and check Facebook.
6:54am - What? Guy from HS is gay? Wouldn't have guessed. What? Girl from college is un-engaged? Hadn't heard about her *AMAZING* fiance in a while (rolls eyes)
7:00am - Alarm goes off. Hit dismiss. Decide to get up. Remember that all of my underwear is still in the washer.
7:01am - Throw underwear in dryer, go cover up SwimTot because she has kicked off her covers in her sleep and a fan is blowing on her.
7:10am - Get stuff together for work, grab extra hair tie. Don't bother with the straightener today.
7:18am - Retrieve slighty damp dryer stuff. And pants.
7:19am - Go start car, put in contacts, brush teeth, grab sweater for work.
7:28am - Pull out of parking lot.
7:47am - Notice car is doing something funky, worry.
7:54am - Pull into parking lot of work. Stay in car and listen to a conversation the DJs are having about prescription pill addiction. Wonder if I know anyone who is addicted to "scripts".
8:00am - Get water in coffee mug for warm water and lemon. But I keep forgetting the lemon, so it will just be warm water today.
8:15am - Deal with a few pieces of mail that were delivered to other departments before they were delivered to ours, which was just this morning.
8:17am - Make coffee for 1 other person in the office.
8:30am - Start reading some blogs
8:35am - Feel guilty about reading blogs at work and do work for a few minutes
(Intermittently) all day - repeat blog reading and feeling guilty work sequence
9:00am - Raisin bran and skim milk
11:30am - Pre-Packaged Carrots and Ranch
1:30pm - Michellina's stuffed pepper meal.
3:00pm - Still freaking exhausted. Nothing is helping. Make iced coffee happen. Bliss.
3:30pm - Get a load of work to do by 5. Get going!
4:00pm - Boss calls (who has been out all day) wants me to look up the location of her daughter's dance class. Location listed is vague, so I give her phone number and she calls.
5:00pm - Leave office, drop off mail for the courier. Prepare to sweat on the way home.
5:02pm - 92 degrees. Air conditioning works hard for little output. Ignore it and keep the 2 windows down that actually roll down. Pant legs up. Sweat and drive home the back way.
5:35pm - Arrive home. Chat with SwimSis, kiss a napping SwimTot. Retreat to room. Internet stops working.
5:55pm - Try everything to fix internet that I can think of. Grab leftover fruit salad as a snack.
6:10pm - The internet is winning. I decide to wait it out. And fall asleep.
6:24pm - Wake up. Hey! Sometimes cat naps do work!
6:30pm - Internet is fine now. I facebook, check email, and play a facebook game.
7:15pm - Start blogging, mess with pictures, take breaks to watch Grey's Anatomy.
8:20pm - Scramble to get workout clothes on as SwimSis will be home from babysitting soon. Get gatorade mixed and look for watch. Must have left in hometown. Sad.
8:45pm - Finally leave after SwimSis gets herself and SwimTot ready.
9:00pm - Arrive at park where (our first) 5K is being held this weekend. Get SwimTot in stroller, start stopwatch on SwimSis's iphone. Start tunes and walk in awe as the stroller has a speaker built in. Coolest stroller ever!
9:05pm - Keep walking, hoping we can remember course from last time. I forgot the course map! I remember everything well, but there are signs posted that hint us in the right direction.
9:40pm - Almost curse the fact that there is no wind. So late. So freaking hot and humid. Get slightly dizzy. Walk for long than I like because of it.
9:53pm - Arrive back at car. 2 mins off from last time, but I didn't push the stroller at all either. Wonder if I can get 50 mins on Saturday.
10:00pm - Roll through McD's drive thru to get sundae for SwimTot for impatiently sitting in the stroller. I get a cone!
10:15pm - Arrive home. Decide to walk around the neighborhood since I didn't get a cool down.
10:25pm - Think about showering, but find that SwimTot is about to take a bath. Have a protein shake that body building aunt brought over. Says "vanilla" tastes for like roasted marshmallow.
10:30pm - Grab piece of garlic bread. Pick at the 1 teeny tiny piece of chicken and some veggies that was left for me. SwimTot is still in the bath so I go get on facebook.
10:35pm - Read facebook posts from the online running club I belong to. Many of them are running the 5K. Thinking about dipping out of meeting any of them due to my introverted personality. Post anyway about the run I did tonight.
10:50pm - Put cereal in tupperware for tomorrow. Feeling legs start to hurt. Shin splinty kind of aches. Wish I didn't leave my pants with the calf/lower leg compression in hometown. SwimSis says to use one of her BioFreeze wipes after my shower.
11:15pm - Finally shower.
11:35pm - Exit shower, take out contacts, get BioFreeze wipe. Read directions. Or lack of directions. Note that only a licensed professional is supposed to give these to patients/clients. SwimSis got them from a masseuse.
11:45pm - Use BioFreeze wipes on legs. Wonder what the big deal is. Discard wipe and rinse hands.
11:46pm - Starting to feel it a little more.
11:47pm - Holy @#$^#$!!!! Legs are truly FREEZING. So, so cold. Try to trap body heat with numerous blankets. Almost shaking. Legs are in the process of freezing off, but can't feel any pain in my muscles either.
11:48pm - Keep watching Grey's Anatomy to keep my mind off of freezing legs. Adrenaline is in full force. Already hoped to be asleep, but am sitting here in misery.
12:10am - Facebook a bit and decide to blog on my day as sleep is not in the near future.
1:00am - Get done blogging, check facebook, turn on Grey's Anatomy, prop legs up on suit case at the end of bed, hoping that might help potential shin splints.
Lord, I didn't mean for that to be so detailed! But that's pretty much an honest look without going into further detail! :)
Sunday, July 15, 2012
Wednesday, July 11, 2012
Water Aerobics - Not Just For Weenies and Older People
Like me, you might have this notion that water aerobics is for the older generations and people who can't handle "real" exercise. As a swimmer, I pretty much stuck my nose in the air when the water aerobics people were doing their thing. Pssshhhh, piece of cake, thought myself and SwimSis.
As I am expanding my fitness horizons, I am trying new classes/exercises. At least 2 "new to me" things a month. On Tuesday I had an itch to get in the water, but my lower back was still out of whack from something dumb I did at Pilates (and then proceeded to complete the rest of pilates class!). LET'S DO WATER AEROBICS!!! Low impact workout, here we come!
{found it here}
So SwimSis and I were unfortunately late, about 5 minutes. So things were already into full swing. We set our stuff down and the teacher, Candice, noticed we were going to join. I whispered/squealed/hissed "LOOK at her!" She was on the pool deck jumping up and down like a person on a crack high. She was yelling and motivating the class. We went to grab the obligatory armbells and SwimSis asked for the hardest ones, but I made her shut up and take the medium ones like me.
"Oh, look at me, it's my first class and I want the hardest thing you have to offer". Show off. Might I mention she also tried pilates the first time, but didn't want to waste her time because it was "too easy". Yeah, then she was sore for days....anyway. We got in and Candice was still going full throttle. It was a shallow end class, although some people were in the deeper parts. Let me just say I'm not the most coordinated person, so it took me a minute to catch on to every move. I thought we were just going to bob around and move our arms slowly at the top of the water, like the ladies in the picture above.
I was wrong. Things quickly escalated in the workout and Candice revealed that her nickname is KILLER CANDICE.
Like hardcore water aerobics, make you hurt while it looks like you are doing something easy, kind of instructor. My heartrate got elevated quickly as we were jogging in place, with sprints of running in place. No stopping, no pauses, no lounging. "It's ONLY been 9 minutes!!!" I groaned. This lady was kicking my booty! And instead of looking like the lady in the picture above, I nearly looked like this:
{found it here}
And those water dumb bell things? Yeah, keeping them under the water/pushing them down is quite the arm workout. And after my arm workout on Monday, I was taking a beating. And in case you were wondering, we survived. The last 15 mins or so (of the hour) were abs/lower body workout. A bit easier, heart rate down some.
Here are a few things I noticed:
-Things aren't as easy as they look sometimes.
-In water aerobics, it is you against yourself/the water. You make your own resistance.
-You challenge yourself to the level of intensity you want to work at. KC would routinely show us a progression of moves, 1 being the easiest, 3 being the hardest, and we were able to stay at a comfortable level, or move to more challenging moves.
- When we were supposed to be an "L" shape, using a "noodle", to do some ab work, I could not keep my lower legs up. They kept sinking. It kept throwing off my core work. Frustrating.
-It kind of felt like pilates in the water. A lot of the moves at the end focused on quality over quantity and having your core in the right position to get the maximum effect.
-It is the opposite of the thought spectrum of swimming laps/competitive swimming. With lap swim, you want to be long, lean, and slice through the water. You want to, and learn how to, move through the water with the least resistance. Streamline is the key word. But in water aerobics, you want to push back against the water, get the most resistance, challenge your muscles to work against the water and against yourself. That part might have been the hardest because I always slip back into wanting to figure out how to cut through the water.
-People look at you like you are crazy, or a sad, 3 legged puppy. Pity or hilarity. I was there too before yesterday!
So look, any water aerobics friends that are reading this: I'M SORRY!!!
I dismissed this exercise as for the weak and timid. But in reality, easier on the joints does not mean less effort/less workout. I commend you water aerobics-ers of the world!
Would I do it again: Yes, I would like to try the deep water class as well as the mixed shallow/deep class. Killer Candice can kick my butt any time. It obviously doesn't rank higher than lap swimming workouts, for me, but I would love to keep it as an option when I'm feeling like I need someone to motivate me into some hardcore exercise.
As I am expanding my fitness horizons, I am trying new classes/exercises. At least 2 "new to me" things a month. On Tuesday I had an itch to get in the water, but my lower back was still out of whack from something dumb I did at Pilates (and then proceeded to complete the rest of pilates class!). LET'S DO WATER AEROBICS!!! Low impact workout, here we come!
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| What I thought I was going to look like |
So SwimSis and I were unfortunately late, about 5 minutes. So things were already into full swing. We set our stuff down and the teacher, Candice, noticed we were going to join. I whispered/squealed/hissed "LOOK at her!" She was on the pool deck jumping up and down like a person on a crack high. She was yelling and motivating the class. We went to grab the obligatory armbells and SwimSis asked for the hardest ones, but I made her shut up and take the medium ones like me.
"Oh, look at me, it's my first class and I want the hardest thing you have to offer". Show off. Might I mention she also tried pilates the first time, but didn't want to waste her time because it was "too easy". Yeah, then she was sore for days....anyway. We got in and Candice was still going full throttle. It was a shallow end class, although some people were in the deeper parts. Let me just say I'm not the most coordinated person, so it took me a minute to catch on to every move. I thought we were just going to bob around and move our arms slowly at the top of the water, like the ladies in the picture above.
I was wrong. Things quickly escalated in the workout and Candice revealed that her nickname is KILLER CANDICE.
Like hardcore water aerobics, make you hurt while it looks like you are doing something easy, kind of instructor. My heartrate got elevated quickly as we were jogging in place, with sprints of running in place. No stopping, no pauses, no lounging. "It's ONLY been 9 minutes!!!" I groaned. This lady was kicking my booty! And instead of looking like the lady in the picture above, I nearly looked like this:
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| Help me! I've underestimated this workout, and we're only 1/4 of the way thru! |
And those water dumb bell things? Yeah, keeping them under the water/pushing them down is quite the arm workout. And after my arm workout on Monday, I was taking a beating. And in case you were wondering, we survived. The last 15 mins or so (of the hour) were abs/lower body workout. A bit easier, heart rate down some.
Here are a few things I noticed:
-Things aren't as easy as they look sometimes.
-In water aerobics, it is you against yourself/the water. You make your own resistance.
-You challenge yourself to the level of intensity you want to work at. KC would routinely show us a progression of moves, 1 being the easiest, 3 being the hardest, and we were able to stay at a comfortable level, or move to more challenging moves.
- When we were supposed to be an "L" shape, using a "noodle", to do some ab work, I could not keep my lower legs up. They kept sinking. It kept throwing off my core work. Frustrating.
-It kind of felt like pilates in the water. A lot of the moves at the end focused on quality over quantity and having your core in the right position to get the maximum effect.
-It is the opposite of the thought spectrum of swimming laps/competitive swimming. With lap swim, you want to be long, lean, and slice through the water. You want to, and learn how to, move through the water with the least resistance. Streamline is the key word. But in water aerobics, you want to push back against the water, get the most resistance, challenge your muscles to work against the water and against yourself. That part might have been the hardest because I always slip back into wanting to figure out how to cut through the water.
-People look at you like you are crazy, or a sad, 3 legged puppy. Pity or hilarity. I was there too before yesterday!
So look, any water aerobics friends that are reading this: I'M SORRY!!!
I dismissed this exercise as for the weak and timid. But in reality, easier on the joints does not mean less effort/less workout. I commend you water aerobics-ers of the world!
Would I do it again: Yes, I would like to try the deep water class as well as the mixed shallow/deep class. Killer Candice can kick my butt any time. It obviously doesn't rank higher than lap swimming workouts, for me, but I would love to keep it as an option when I'm feeling like I need someone to motivate me into some hardcore exercise.
Sunday, July 8, 2012
Might as well wrap up June!
We are almost in July double digits anyway :)
This is how many fitness minutes I had: Not exactly sure.
My numbers are skewed due to a the Father's Day/Weekend garage cleaning at my dad's. I just couldn't put down 480 minutes for that weekend, although that was the time we worked on the garage!
Here is what I did:
- 4 lap swims - 124 minutes, 5750 yards
-1 open water swim, 30 minutes
-3 Lifting sessions, totaling 26,500 pounds lifted
-4 pilates sessions, 40/45 mins each
-11 walks and/or runs, 408 minutes, 21.7 miles (3 5Ks - 1 of them a race!)
-1 ungodly terrible time on the elliptical. dislike! 18 mins.
-2 bike rides, 56 mins
-1 pilates video, 30 mins
-1 fat burning ab attack video, 30 mins
One of my goals is to do at least two new to me things a month. June had me doing pilates, which I had done on a tape, but not a live class. I like it! The beginner classes are good, but I heard from some friends that the beginner class at the downtown Y kicks your @$$ every time! I might have to go to that sometime!
And June was also the first time I had ridden a bike in at least 2 years. I don't love it. I don't know if it's an incorrect bike, or trying to get this much weight around on 2 wheels! haha
I lost 5 lbs in June, which I am proud of and grateful for. That last week was hard, mentally. I think it was my nutrition that kicked my butt. That last week, I was eating so healthy at work. Then I would come home and had stuff like pizza, cake, or frozen yogurt. Baking that cake sounded like a great idea, but my brother in law, Coach only at like 4 pieces. I definitely ate the rest that week! And yes, it was delicious, if you were wondering! I felt like I was actually trying to eat well at work, then sabotaged myself. Notes on what not to do this month! :)
Oh, I also made it 6 months without getting anything from the vending machines! Slightly insignificant, but I think if I did get something from there, that I would just want to get chocolate, chips, etc everyday.
In the end, June made me feel good that I can keep up a 20 day per month workout routine. I am liking all of the outdoor stuff that comes along with summer! My clothes are feeling looser, a couple of skirts fit SO much better in the stomach, it's unreal! My towel can ALMOST wrap around me with no gaps! This month was also when I crossed the 5% lost threshold.
Total weight lost as of 6/30/12: 15 pounds!
This is how many fitness minutes I had: Not exactly sure.
My numbers are skewed due to a the Father's Day/Weekend garage cleaning at my dad's. I just couldn't put down 480 minutes for that weekend, although that was the time we worked on the garage!
Here is what I did:
- 4 lap swims - 124 minutes, 5750 yards
-1 open water swim, 30 minutes
-3 Lifting sessions, totaling 26,500 pounds lifted
-4 pilates sessions, 40/45 mins each
-11 walks and/or runs, 408 minutes, 21.7 miles (3 5Ks - 1 of them a race!)
-1 ungodly terrible time on the elliptical. dislike! 18 mins.
-2 bike rides, 56 mins
-1 pilates video, 30 mins
-1 fat burning ab attack video, 30 mins
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| Perhaps I should write "rest" a little smaller, they stick out! |
One of my goals is to do at least two new to me things a month. June had me doing pilates, which I had done on a tape, but not a live class. I like it! The beginner classes are good, but I heard from some friends that the beginner class at the downtown Y kicks your @$$ every time! I might have to go to that sometime!
And June was also the first time I had ridden a bike in at least 2 years. I don't love it. I don't know if it's an incorrect bike, or trying to get this much weight around on 2 wheels! haha
I lost 5 lbs in June, which I am proud of and grateful for. That last week was hard, mentally. I think it was my nutrition that kicked my butt. That last week, I was eating so healthy at work. Then I would come home and had stuff like pizza, cake, or frozen yogurt. Baking that cake sounded like a great idea, but my brother in law, Coach only at like 4 pieces. I definitely ate the rest that week! And yes, it was delicious, if you were wondering! I felt like I was actually trying to eat well at work, then sabotaged myself. Notes on what not to do this month! :)
Oh, I also made it 6 months without getting anything from the vending machines! Slightly insignificant, but I think if I did get something from there, that I would just want to get chocolate, chips, etc everyday.
In the end, June made me feel good that I can keep up a 20 day per month workout routine. I am liking all of the outdoor stuff that comes along with summer! My clothes are feeling looser, a couple of skirts fit SO much better in the stomach, it's unreal! My towel can ALMOST wrap around me with no gaps! This month was also when I crossed the 5% lost threshold.
Total weight lost as of 6/30/12: 15 pounds!
Wednesday, July 4, 2012
The post I have been putting off
I don't like to write about my failures, downfalls, or any parts of me that are not ideal (seems silly writing that, 280lbs was not ideal!). But this weekend was not good! I was just fighting so hard with myself, winning some, losing some (battles that is!), and feeling somewhat depressed.
I REALLY wanted to get at least 20 days of working out in June (note; June review, and July in progress reports to come in a different post!). That meant I would have to work out Friday and Saturday (29th and 30th). I drug my feet all I could Friday and did a workout video on netflix. It was taking FOREVER to load and I was hungry, so I started toward the fridge. I pulled out a Spark People recipe leftovers and very greasy pizza. I could not eat both (note: I came home after babysitting last Wednesday and ate 3 greasy pieces after I had had PLENTY of dinner while babysitting, ugh!). Right before I chose the pizza, the xbox kicked into gear and I was able to get my video up and running.
I was happy to try a new video, all I had done previously was Pick Your Level Pilates (love that one!). I can tell my fitness is improving because Pick Your Level Pilates seemed to go by fast and was still challenging. And when I tried this new video it didn't end up in me sitting on the couch, unable to do what the video was asking, flipping off the instructor (Yeah, it happened to 290 pound me failing in the first round of Jillian's 30 day shred 3 years ago).
I was able to pick the Spark People recipe and felt good about that. I slept in on Saturday morning and just bummed around watching Grey's Anatomy. I gave in to that greasy pizza, it was gross, but I ate it all. I truly just felt "blah" and didn't want to do anything. I was watching SwimTot because her rents were out of town. I knew we were going to an outdoor symphony event that night, and I needed to get groceries, and get my exercise in. I saw I wasn't able to go to the Y because child watch was over. That made me feel even more blah (because of my procrastination, I couldn't do what I had planned). Finally, at 4pm, I had myself and SwimTot packed up to go on a walk at a local nature preserve. I felt like such a bad aunt for not really doing anything with her until 4pm!
At the nature reserve, it was threatening rain, but really, the radar looked like it was going to be fine! We were walking some trails and it started to thunder a wee bit. Then I could hear a light sprinkle, but we weren't getting wet because we were pretty well into the "forest" and the trees were shielding us. After about 5 minutes, probably at the farthest point back, it started to POUR! I'm glad she took it so well, we walked/ran back to a shelter for 5 mins until it stopped. She loved the nature preserve and so did I! We ended up being in motion for 40 minutes. :)
The symphony was good, SwimTot's first concert. It was symphony + rock band. It was pretty awesome. It was 10:45 when I got out of the parking lot. I was fun, but in the back of my mind, my old habits kept telling me what would top this night off would be stop at the drive through. Something yummy like the old days where I used to go out and get a whole meal before bed. I acknowledged myself being full, and skipped the drive though.
The next morning, I was desperate to see 265. My first attempt at losing weight, where I had a complete lifestyle change via changing jobs, I lost most of 35 pounds in 4 months. When I would go to weigh in, I would step on the scale and if it wasn't where I would like it to be, I would go back to my room and wait a while, hop back on and see what it said. I liked to see the lowest weight possible, so that meant morning, no liquids, no food yet, and no clothes. I would sometimes wait until 1 or 2 pm until I saw that number that I wanted so badly. I acknowledge that this is an unhealthy behavior and try not to do this, mostly based on the fact that the only scale is in SwimSis' bathroom. Sunday I wanted to see 265 so i could put that I was officially 15 pounds down at the end of June. I waited till 11:45 until I saw the right number. I even made SwimTot breakfast and unknowingly took a bite of toast and spit it out before it could add to my weight. Wow, that is so shameful for me to write! I can see progress in my thoughts and habits during this period of weight loss, but I am not immune from those old habits, unfortunately.
I had pea soup and chicken for lunch (by the way, I had pea soup for lunch every day last week. It was delicious, but I noticed my pee was almost a neon green!) I consulted my doctor aka the internet (I'm uninsured!) and it told me that I was either a) dying b) had a terrible vaginal infection or c) had an excess of certain vitamins, brought on by eating a lot of veggies, their example was asparagus. I had no symptoms of dying or vaginal terribleness, so I chalked it up to the pea soup, and sure enough, when I stopped eating it everyday, the pee went back to normal). Then eventually I just went back to my slump and Grey's Anatomy. I was thinking that my level of physical fitness was nothing. Still terrible, nothing to be proud of. This may or may not have coincided with a girl I graduated with from the hometown winning her track and field event in the Olympic Trials and is freaking going to the Olympics. I'm very happy for her though!
Monday wasn't much better. I mean, it started off with me not being able to go to sleep the night before (hmmm...caffeine from dark chocolate or that bit of Easter chocolate I found? gross, I know. but I didn't care) and slept through my alarm, shooting out of bed at 7:23am! I was so out of it, I was just gathering recycling to take to work (we don't have recycling at home), weird! I was unshowered and out of the door in 12 minutes and at work by 7:59am! I had a headache that grew all day and almost did not go to pilates (I am starting to love pilates, even with the talkative instructor! She really kills it with hard moves these days!). I went and there were 2 students in the class (including myself!). Afterwards, I did 1.06 miles in 24 mins, on 1.5 incline. I still felt terrible, but told myself not to go to fast and if I felt terrible, I would leave. I'm pretty sure I went to sleep right at 10 that night!
I was blah all the next day until I had a revelation. Someone's blog had on their "goal" page to lose 5% of their original body weight. I had always had 10% in my mind as a goal, but 5% is significant too. I did the math and I had lost 5%! I did something! Accomplishment! And then the rest of the day was just this huge pep talk where I noted all of the freaking awesome things I had done! A whole chocolate bar (dark choc with dried blueberries) had lasted me OVER A WEEK. 2-3 small pieces a day. I still can't believe it! I just bought dark choc with cranberries and almonds tonight. I thought about not working out, but I decided to go back to the nature preserve. I was hustling because it was getting dark (about 8:30 when I started) and the woods always get darker first. I explored several trails at a good pace for the first 15 minutes. Then I ended up on a gravel path that looped. I thought, "hey, i bet I could run part of this". So i started running, I thought about stopping at some points to walk, but honestly didn't feel like it. I ran the whole loop, back to where I started. I looked at my watch and discovered I had run 4mins 40 seconds - longest continual running time! I honestly could have gone longer, but it was getting a little dark and I saw a guy walking by himself ahead of me, my stranger danger alert kicked in and I was holding my metal water bottle in a manner where I was ready whack someone with it. But no worries, I had nothing to worry about that day. After that, i was on top of the world! Kinda felt like I got my mojo back. Made me wonder if I really felt all those bad things about myself before, like did that really happen? I'm glad and encouraged to have this community where I can let out stuff that I have been going through :)
Today I bummed around like normal, went swimming (first time in a gazillion days) for 52 mins at the Y, at a big thing of froyo, almost bought a Ryan Lochte t-shirt at Dick's Sporting Goods:
Sadly, it didn't have a picture of him on it, or I totally would have! While I'm at it, here's another swimming hottie that I love, although he doesn't rep the US. I give you, the Tunisian: Ous Mellouli!
And if you're not drooling by now, I went to see this with a few friends this evening:
It was wildly inappropriate. And fantastic. The storyline, not so much. The most naked men - definitely!
Sweet dreams blogsphere!
I REALLY wanted to get at least 20 days of working out in June (note; June review, and July in progress reports to come in a different post!). That meant I would have to work out Friday and Saturday (29th and 30th). I drug my feet all I could Friday and did a workout video on netflix. It was taking FOREVER to load and I was hungry, so I started toward the fridge. I pulled out a Spark People recipe leftovers and very greasy pizza. I could not eat both (note: I came home after babysitting last Wednesday and ate 3 greasy pieces after I had had PLENTY of dinner while babysitting, ugh!). Right before I chose the pizza, the xbox kicked into gear and I was able to get my video up and running.
I was happy to try a new video, all I had done previously was Pick Your Level Pilates (love that one!). I can tell my fitness is improving because Pick Your Level Pilates seemed to go by fast and was still challenging. And when I tried this new video it didn't end up in me sitting on the couch, unable to do what the video was asking, flipping off the instructor (Yeah, it happened to 290 pound me failing in the first round of Jillian's 30 day shred 3 years ago).
I was able to pick the Spark People recipe and felt good about that. I slept in on Saturday morning and just bummed around watching Grey's Anatomy. I gave in to that greasy pizza, it was gross, but I ate it all. I truly just felt "blah" and didn't want to do anything. I was watching SwimTot because her rents were out of town. I knew we were going to an outdoor symphony event that night, and I needed to get groceries, and get my exercise in. I saw I wasn't able to go to the Y because child watch was over. That made me feel even more blah (because of my procrastination, I couldn't do what I had planned). Finally, at 4pm, I had myself and SwimTot packed up to go on a walk at a local nature preserve. I felt like such a bad aunt for not really doing anything with her until 4pm!
At the nature reserve, it was threatening rain, but really, the radar looked like it was going to be fine! We were walking some trails and it started to thunder a wee bit. Then I could hear a light sprinkle, but we weren't getting wet because we were pretty well into the "forest" and the trees were shielding us. After about 5 minutes, probably at the farthest point back, it started to POUR! I'm glad she took it so well, we walked/ran back to a shelter for 5 mins until it stopped. She loved the nature preserve and so did I! We ended up being in motion for 40 minutes. :)
The symphony was good, SwimTot's first concert. It was symphony + rock band. It was pretty awesome. It was 10:45 when I got out of the parking lot. I was fun, but in the back of my mind, my old habits kept telling me what would top this night off would be stop at the drive through. Something yummy like the old days where I used to go out and get a whole meal before bed. I acknowledged myself being full, and skipped the drive though.
The next morning, I was desperate to see 265. My first attempt at losing weight, where I had a complete lifestyle change via changing jobs, I lost most of 35 pounds in 4 months. When I would go to weigh in, I would step on the scale and if it wasn't where I would like it to be, I would go back to my room and wait a while, hop back on and see what it said. I liked to see the lowest weight possible, so that meant morning, no liquids, no food yet, and no clothes. I would sometimes wait until 1 or 2 pm until I saw that number that I wanted so badly. I acknowledge that this is an unhealthy behavior and try not to do this, mostly based on the fact that the only scale is in SwimSis' bathroom. Sunday I wanted to see 265 so i could put that I was officially 15 pounds down at the end of June. I waited till 11:45 until I saw the right number. I even made SwimTot breakfast and unknowingly took a bite of toast and spit it out before it could add to my weight. Wow, that is so shameful for me to write! I can see progress in my thoughts and habits during this period of weight loss, but I am not immune from those old habits, unfortunately.
I had pea soup and chicken for lunch (by the way, I had pea soup for lunch every day last week. It was delicious, but I noticed my pee was almost a neon green!) I consulted my doctor aka the internet (I'm uninsured!) and it told me that I was either a) dying b) had a terrible vaginal infection or c) had an excess of certain vitamins, brought on by eating a lot of veggies, their example was asparagus. I had no symptoms of dying or vaginal terribleness, so I chalked it up to the pea soup, and sure enough, when I stopped eating it everyday, the pee went back to normal). Then eventually I just went back to my slump and Grey's Anatomy. I was thinking that my level of physical fitness was nothing. Still terrible, nothing to be proud of. This may or may not have coincided with a girl I graduated with from the hometown winning her track and field event in the Olympic Trials and is freaking going to the Olympics. I'm very happy for her though!
Monday wasn't much better. I mean, it started off with me not being able to go to sleep the night before (hmmm...caffeine from dark chocolate or that bit of Easter chocolate I found? gross, I know. but I didn't care) and slept through my alarm, shooting out of bed at 7:23am! I was so out of it, I was just gathering recycling to take to work (we don't have recycling at home), weird! I was unshowered and out of the door in 12 minutes and at work by 7:59am! I had a headache that grew all day and almost did not go to pilates (I am starting to love pilates, even with the talkative instructor! She really kills it with hard moves these days!). I went and there were 2 students in the class (including myself!). Afterwards, I did 1.06 miles in 24 mins, on 1.5 incline. I still felt terrible, but told myself not to go to fast and if I felt terrible, I would leave. I'm pretty sure I went to sleep right at 10 that night!
I was blah all the next day until I had a revelation. Someone's blog had on their "goal" page to lose 5% of their original body weight. I had always had 10% in my mind as a goal, but 5% is significant too. I did the math and I had lost 5%! I did something! Accomplishment! And then the rest of the day was just this huge pep talk where I noted all of the freaking awesome things I had done! A whole chocolate bar (dark choc with dried blueberries) had lasted me OVER A WEEK. 2-3 small pieces a day. I still can't believe it! I just bought dark choc with cranberries and almonds tonight. I thought about not working out, but I decided to go back to the nature preserve. I was hustling because it was getting dark (about 8:30 when I started) and the woods always get darker first. I explored several trails at a good pace for the first 15 minutes. Then I ended up on a gravel path that looped. I thought, "hey, i bet I could run part of this". So i started running, I thought about stopping at some points to walk, but honestly didn't feel like it. I ran the whole loop, back to where I started. I looked at my watch and discovered I had run 4mins 40 seconds - longest continual running time! I honestly could have gone longer, but it was getting a little dark and I saw a guy walking by himself ahead of me, my stranger danger alert kicked in and I was holding my metal water bottle in a manner where I was ready whack someone with it. But no worries, I had nothing to worry about that day. After that, i was on top of the world! Kinda felt like I got my mojo back. Made me wonder if I really felt all those bad things about myself before, like did that really happen? I'm glad and encouraged to have this community where I can let out stuff that I have been going through :)
Today I bummed around like normal, went swimming (first time in a gazillion days) for 52 mins at the Y, at a big thing of froyo, almost bought a Ryan Lochte t-shirt at Dick's Sporting Goods:
Sadly, it didn't have a picture of him on it, or I totally would have! While I'm at it, here's another swimming hottie that I love, although he doesn't rep the US. I give you, the Tunisian: Ous Mellouli!
It was wildly inappropriate. And fantastic. The storyline, not so much. The most naked men - definitely!
Sweet dreams blogsphere!
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